Last night I drove down the coast to Aveiro which is a city in Portugal where I go to university for my masters degree. And I was so tired... I had to crank up the music so I wouldn't fall asleep at the wheel. 90's tunes are my "drug" of choice to keep awake. I swear... it was the weirdest road trip ever because even doing this every week since September on my own with no one to talk to I always sort of feel okay and confortable... I always keep myself company, if you know what I mean. I don't talk to myself... but my thoughts keep me entertained. But yesterday... yesterday I had nothing on my mind. Literally nothing! It kind of freaked me out. Of course when I got the toll just before entering Porto I had an idea for a poem and wrote it down on a piece of paper. When I looked up the dude in the toll booth was like... really hot! He actually melted me and I felt my whole body tingle. What a deep voice as he told me in portuguese: have a nice day! Oh my! Then I snapped out of it as he raised the pole for me to go through (hmmm... this sounds funny... raised the pole... that's what he did. eheheh). And I went back to thinking about... well... nothing.
When I got to Aveiro I was really stressed out because it's 2 weeks in the month and still haven't gotten paid. What is up with that crap? I am so sick of being mistreated and underrated. I went to university! I invested time and money on my degree! But working where I do I realize it was all for nothing. I should have just "networked" and got to know the right people. Maybe I'd be fucking president by now! You have no idea how fucked up things are here in Portugal. Makes me ashamed of having such a background. I'm fed up with "this" world (not in a suicidal way, but in a way I want to tell them to fuck themselves, pack a bag and split).
Well... after dinner I was racing against time to get this weeks assignment done. Need I say that I wasn't successful. It's partially done. But I'm on track. Eventually it'll come together later today so I can turn it in at 5 p.m. It's just a simple assignment I had no time for because of my fucking day job. That place is destroying me bit by bit everyday. I need to get my shit together and think of alternate solutions. And that's what I thought of last night (and basically every day and every night since October).
I wonder what this night will be like?
P.S. I'm going out with some groovy chicks to check out this zombie flick (at least that's the plan), so some juicy (or funny) stuff might be written down tomorrow!
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